SCUBA

It’s a different world, beneath the waves. You descend slowly, air escaping from the Buoyancy Control Device (BCD) in a stream of bubbles, pausing every so often to equalize the pressure in your sinuses with a quick pinch to the nose and exhale.

The last time I went diving was in 2010 in Australia; almost ten years had gone by, but it was like riding a bike. I had obtained my Open Water Diver PADI back in 2006, and had used it several times in the following years; mostly in Thailand and in Australia. But then life got busy and the opportunities to go diving didn’t really come up that often.

But when my wife and family offered, for my birthday, to pay for a diving trip whilst we were in Thailand for my sister-in-law’s wedding, I jumped at the chance.

The dive trip set off from the floating pier in a Long Tail boat, one of those narrow wooden vessels where they mount a car engine on one end of a pole and a propeller on the other, and steer by swinging the pole. It was a half-day fun trip, just myself, a couple doing a training dive and two instructors.

There had been a storm forecast, but the skies were blue and the sea was gentle. My instructor and I dropped into the sea on one side of a small island, and descended down to about 18 meters below the surface. Down there you aren’t buffeted by the waves and the currents are gentle. We started out in the “muck”, a desolate flat area that, nevertheless, had an interesting array of life. From Longfin Bannerfish to nudibranch and several crabs, there is a lot to see if you know where to look.

As we got closer to the island, the coral reefs sprang up. Along with an abundance of boating, careless tourism, and general pollution; my instructor had told me that the big tsunami of 2004 had devastated the reefs and they were only just in the last 4 or 5 years starting to properly re-establish themselves. Coral Reefs are incredibly delicate eco-systems that take years to grow and do not suffer punishment easily.

But, despite their poor health, they were an abundance of life. I’m not even going to begin to list all the things I saw down there, but highlights included Eels, stingray, box fish, puffer fish, a rare pipefish, and shoals of fusiliers; literal walls of fish.

Life is so alien down there, like the weird, ethereal jellyfish, or the strange razor fish that swim in formation, their heads pointed down. Or even the bizarre megafauna that is coral itself; colonies of millions of tiny little creatures that bind together to create domes, tubes, tendrils, to resemble plants or resemble nothing at all. The peculiar sea urchins, that just look like balls of spikes. And in between, fish of every shape and size and color.

And in between it all is yourself, a giant, lumbering, ungainly shape. Truly it is you who is the alien here, the air-breather floating in between walls of coral, a leviathan in their micro-world.

Sensation is muted here. Sound is dulled, more vibration than anything else, save for the rushing air passing through the rebreather and the escaping plume of bubbles. Colours are muted too, and visibility reduced. The water is warm, comfortable and apart from the near constant taste of salt in your mouth, you almost forget it’s there at all. You become an entity unto yourself, a self-contained world observing the greater world around it. You are (almost) alone with your thoughts. And yet your every breath takes new significance; not only because this once taken-for-grantees resource has become limited and finite, but also because the very act of breathing alters your buoyancy. A sudden wrong move, too deep or too shallow and breath and you could go crashing into the reef, destroying habitats and killing the very coral itself.

And so, by necessity, you live in the moment. Every breath is calculated, every movement is considered. Your senses are focused on both the majesty that surrounds you and on your very being itself. It is both at once enlightened tranquility and a crushing, exhausting trial of mind and body.

We return to the surface slowly, pausing at 5 meters depth for our bodies to reacclimatize to the surface pressure. When we finally break the surface of the sea, the world comes crashing back; sound and air and colour. It is a relief to be free from the crushing grip of the mask, to be free of the rubber bit of the mouthpiece. But also a shame to be leaving that world of alien majesty, that riot of movement and rich, intense life behind.

But only for a minute. A bottle of water, some pineapple and a quick change of dive site later, and off we go again!

I love diving, especially here in the warm waters around the west coast of Thailand. And I hope it won’t be almost ten years before I descend to the depths once more.

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On Aging

So I’m another year older. Going from being a thirty-something year old to a thirty-something year old.

Really at this point of my life there isn’t much difference between one year and the next, personally. I’m still sorta unfit. Still a little soft around the middle. Still got a few grey hairs but not any more noticeable. (Though I did find a pretty substantial bugger growing in my beard the other day)

I still like to watch anime. I still like to draw and write. Still like to travel when the opportunity arises.

So yeah. Not a big difference in being a year older. Maybe getting a little better at this whole “being a Dad” schtick?

I’m also in that weird space where I sort of want to take my birthday seriously and have it be the most important day, but also kind of realize it isn’t that big of a deal? Like, I don’t want to do chores or do work because “it’s my birthday”. And I feel like I should make an effort to do something significant or noteworthy on this day. It’s sort of like a giant pat on the back. “I am here and this is the day I came into existence so give me gifts and cake and don’t make me do anything I don’t want to do.” It just feels sort of self-important at this point. Even writing this blog-post, in a way, is sort of self-congratulatory? “Hey guys, it’s my birthday, so I’m gonna write about it being my birthday!”

So yeah. Another year older. But still me. And all that entails.

On the other hand, my wife and family have decided to band together to book me onto a SCUBA diving trip later this year when we visit Thailand for a wedding! I am pretty excited; I haven’t been diving in 9 years, and I think I’m overdue. Thailand is a great place to go diving too, I went diving there back in 2009, and it was some of the best diving I’ve done. So yeah, pretty excited for that birthday present. Thank you fam!

I feel like I had more to say on the subject, but the Golden Globes is on and it’s distracting me. Sorry.

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